Monday, September 25, 2006

Sound familiar

It has been said that Vogons are not above a little bribery and corruption in the same way that the sea is not above the clouds, and this was certainly true in his case. When he heard the words “integrity” or “moral rectitude”, he reached for his dictionary, and when he heard the chink of ready money in large quantities he reached for the rule book and threw it away.

From The Restaurant at The End of The Universe, by Douglas Adams

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Beginnings

The cradle rocks above an abyss, and common sense tells us that our existence is but a brief crack of light between two eternities of darkness. Although the two are identical twins, man, as a rule, views the prenatal abyss with more calm than the one he is heading for (at some forty-five hundred heartbeats an hour). I know, however, of a young chronophobiac who experienced something like panic when looking for the first time at homemade movies that had been taken a few weeks before his birth. He saw a world that was practically unchanged—the same house, the same people—and then realized that he did not exist there at all and that nobody mourned his absence. He caught a glimpse of his mother waving from an upstairs, and that unfamiliar gesture disturbed him, as if it were some mysterious farewell. But what particularly frightened him was the sight of a brand-new baby carriage standing there on the porch, with the smug, encroaching air of a coffin; even that was empty, as if, in the reverse course of events, his very bones had disintegrated.

-Vladimir Nabokov, from Speak Memory

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I'm no different

The skills I own have too many names. If I could take myself and put myself to one final, irrevocable purpose, I would do it. Even if it finished me. Because every man wants to know that he matters. You know? That he accomplishes something. Even if he dies. I want a fair maiden to rescue, dragons to slay. Or I could be the dragon: no difference. Not one that matters anymore. Every man wants that. I’m no different. The skills I own are repeated in a slightly altered loop. If I could perpetuate myself in a string of absolute variables, I would do it. Even if it stereotyped me. Because every man wants to be constant, a pole star of value, of frailties that can be acclaimed as the hubris of demigods, the kind of frailty that will uplift, not despise. The kind of frailty that spirals away from the loop, disintegrates it, so the loop doesn't matter anymore. Every man wants that. 'I’m so different.'

-Don't remember the source. Long time ago